Monday, May 30, 2011

I think...


I'm going to eat what the call a "healthy" calorie amount. Which to me will be 1200. I'll still lose weight, not as fast, and it's healthier since I sit on my butt most of the time. I wanna be able to at least maintain my weight. All this is because I looked at my wrist for the past few weeks and thought "When did you get small?".
Guys, we're gorgeous. We just can't see it.
I wanna find someone who loves me and I wanna be able to do everything with them and not feel guilt.I wanna be alive and free.
Sorry if I'm disappointing someone, but this is my life and I'm running it the way I want. So I guess I'm not sorry.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Dropping the 0


on my 24680 diet. Since it's hot, I'm only gonna do 468. Which is a lot, I know. During this heat, though, I need energy to not pass out. So far, 123 calories. From a yogurt and parts of an egg.
Dunno my current weight.
Maybe when I'm smaller I'll get a boy/girlfriend

Friday, May 27, 2011

Bad Day


We went to a buffet. Ugh. I had 3 plates, technically. One was all fruit. One was mainly noodles. The last one was three SMALL desserts. I'm guessing, with two technical meals, I had about the same a normal person has all day. UGH!!
Tomorrow is 800. Let's hope I can keep to this. If not, I'm doing a two day fast. Dizzy is not enough . I need to be low calorie.

So far, so good.

So far I've had 230 calories! YAY!
Danced off about 8 for a net of 222. Cute number.
I'm gonna weigh myself here in a minute for the contest I'm in!
Under 130, pleasee?

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Alex was weak

Over 200... I'll do better next time!!
Tomorrow= first day of summer/400 calories.
I'll be stronger. I'll so it.

I will be strong

Today I will eat no more than 200 calories. Today, I'll be light. Today, I will run on almost empty and be proud. Today, I will not be tempted by the just food Anna plans on making. I will not feel safe just because I am speaking to someone. I will be strong!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011



I posted all happy to have eaten so little...and then my mom got home and I felt "safe" so I ate.
Scale says 134.
Tried talking to one of my friends about this because sometimes I hate it. She doesn't understand. She's larger and happy. She's the person who makes the jokes, I'm the brat who lives them.
Purging came to mind while I was in the shower. Didn't do it because I'm sure everything's digested. This is starting to scare me because I can imagine purging.
But I've come so far...

Thank you all for the nice comments... I just wish I deserved them. Tomorrow I will! I'll be strong ALL day. ||ANONYMOUS||, americaneagle, and NeoHippie I will be worthy of comments about a good intake tomorrow!
Americaneagle, what store is that?! I want a cheap tank top!
Anonymous, this is how I feel about any diet: if you wanna, go for it. It's alright if you don't have time to. I just get a little lonely.
NeoHippie, Aw, I'm glad I make you less lonely! That's why I'm here!



Ate 210, burned 28.27 so far! SO FAR! I'm planning of doing more, of course. Wouldn't it be cool if I got down to a net of zero?
So, on most sites I go to for diet-planning say not to take money with you. Well, I say find out how a coffee, plain, is from a place near where you're going. Exact change, down to tax. That way you can caffeinate yourself, but not be tempted for much else. That's what I do, at least, when I'm out with friends. A small coffee from McDonald's, last time I got one, was 96 cents.
I have nine followers and none of you say anything. It's quite lonely. Then again, I don't give much for you to say anything about.
Oh! Alex is thinking of doing a 24680 diet. Meaning two hundred, four hundred, six hundred, eight hundred, ZERO! I'll start tomorrow! We get out for summer tomorrow, so it's PERFECT.

Americaneagle, sorry I didn't see your comment earlier! Anyway, I'm always really hard on myself when I have junk foods. They're generally the one thing that trips me up.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


Sorry, no picture. The comp won't let me log in.
Ate 963 and used about 108. Yay?


A freaking ice cream bar kept me from a perfect 0. Icecream!
So mad.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Ate a little.


And ran half a mile in 4 minutes and thirty seconds. I probably had 421 1200 calories and burned 58 74. It actually felt great to run that much that fast.
Currently, I have a net of 363 1118. Under 500! Yay~
Had coffee for breakfast, some rolls and chips for lunch, no snack, and no dinner (hopefully).
Was gonna fast, but my teacher made lunch, so I felt it would be rude to decline.

Sunday, May 22, 2011


Dunno how much I ate today, not enough to make the dizzies go away. Wish I had fasted. Tomorrow, maybe??
Asking Anna about cigarettes. Because she knows where to get some. And I don't see it, mentally, as bad as drinking. Drinking makes you gain weight, right? Smoking keeps you from wanting to eat.
I don't know my intake or how much I exercised. Did I exercise? The days kinda flow together.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Get up and Dance


I use most of my calories dancing. Just realized this. Maybe that's why my legs are more toned than my tummy.

Water- zero.

Coffee- 0-2
Water- 0

Same as lunch

This is only a plan right now. Let's hope I can stick with it.

DANCING~ for AT LEAST 10 minutes
Working stummy for at least 4 minutes
Jumping jacks for 1 minute
And WiiFit for 20 minutes
Without the wiifit, this should burn 106. The wiifit will probably be another hundred, at least.

Sounds fun. Alright, I'm off to make my dance playlist! That way I won't have any drab, boring songs that I try dancing to.

Everything strike-out is my failures. I did six minutes dancing, worked my stummy for two minutes, didn't touch the wiifit, had 3 slices of cheese, a ninety calorie yogurt, 290 calories worth of cake, and 4 frozen cherries. About 673 taken in and only about sixty-eight burned. FAIL. Bad, bad, bad.

Friday, May 20, 2011



That's my calorie count. Yep, I broke my fast for....Cookies. Fail.
I did dance for about a minute while I was out tonight. Then I got home and danced to a few songs for about three minutes. Laziness. But I burned about... 26 calories.
This means I have a huge net of 495. Yep...
I'm gonna go do something to work my absss. Because my tummy looks ick.

Coffee For Breakfast

Coffee and water. I'm trying to fast for today. Hopefully a steady stream of caffeine will keep me almost empty. Yay~

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Forgot to Count

I didn't count my calories today, sure bet it's a lot.
Exercisin, though. My tummy looked preggo. It hurts to work it, but in a good way.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011



I'm gonna be honest, I haven't kept track. My tummy hurts from hunger. Isn't that enough? No. These 3's are too small. Sure, they go on easy. But that means nothing. NOTHING if I never get to 120s. Nothing if 130 does not become my new "fat weight-watch out!". NOTHING if all I am is fat.

Monday, May 16, 2011



Breakfast: None
Lunch: Some Mac and Cheese (100)
Snack: Coffee (25), Combos (65)
Total: 190

Exercise: P.E. (run a minute, walk for half, did this for 10 minutes), crunches (70)

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I don't know.


Food went in. Walking happened. Weight? 130. New lowest weight. Awesome. Only I'm too tired to give a damn.
Tomorrow I'll have not a single calorie more than 900. I'll find something more to do than walk. Tomorrow, I'll be amazing.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


Intake: 895
Used: 32 + 145 + 24 + 6= 207
Net: 688
Weight: Wii says 130.3
I'm getting there. It's coming off. It's amazing.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Goal: 100


Intake: 92
Used: 13 + 23 + 25 + 16 + 5 = 101
Total: -9
Of course, the day isn't over yet. That number could be more negative or positive before the day is up. Obviously I'll edit it as I eat/exercise.

Monday, May 9, 2011



Intake: 786
Used:34.5 + 103 + 34= 171.5
Net: 614.5
Weight: 137
Mood: Like Shit.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

I did it.


In: 124
Out: 73
Net: 51
I had coffee, a small salad, and some strawberries.
I walked a lot and danced around my room.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Over 200.


Friday, May 6, 2011



Intake: 664 dunno about 1384
Used: Dunno about 552.55
weight: Probably 137 or 138
goal calories: 300
Net: Dunno. 831.45
Got to my grandma's, mowed the lawn for about 2 and 1/2 hours, came in and 264 went to 664. Now, I feel sick. I just wanna go for a long run.
Ate dinner. Pizza, soup, milk. Ew. Feel like puking.

Good News: Didn't gain weight
Bad News: Didn't lose any weight.
Americaneaglelove: Probably not as many calories as you're hoping because it was a ride-mower. But it's more than I thought. Wow, 389.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Alex ended up doing yesterday's today.


Intake- 560
Calories used- 135
Net: 425
Weight: 137
Total cuts still healing: 13

Wednesday, May 4, 2011



Went over my set amount by a lot.
Only had P.E. as exercise.
Good news?
Still 137. Yay!

Bad news not related to eating:
I broke down and cut tonight.
Slit my thumb on accident.
I'm alive, though.

Alex is ALIVE.
Tomorrow will better!
I swear.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Down to 137.


That's after a shower, completely without clothing.
That's at the end of the day.
That's after I haven't eaten for a couple hours.
That's unbelievable.
Alex is shocked with herself.
Pleased, too, but very shocked.

Americaneaglelove, I did get very warm while exercising. Thank you for the encouragement to do it.

Staying Under

No breakfast.
Apple Chip things- 100

1/2 of a Pay Day bar: 120
A Twinkie- 150
3 mint things- 60

A serving of veggie soup: 80
Some rice- 100 (very small amount, but it was creamy and flavored)

Total- 610

I still need to exercise today. I've been really cold, so I don't want to do anything, but that's only an excuse. I shouldn't make those.

EDIT (after 10:04 PMish):
Did a little exercising. Only burned about 60 calories.
So, that's a net of 550. Poo.
Maybe more later?? :D

Monday, May 2, 2011

I Dun Wanna Talk About It


I don't even wanna guess how many calories I've eaten...
I've had 1/2 of a cookie, 4 slices of an apple (cut into even slices), green tea (good!), a doughnut (badd), and a sandwich with a single slice of bread (about 110) and 2 slices of cheese and, to make it worse, ranch dressing.
I've only burned off 52 calories, but the day's not over!!
Alright, time for a small dinner.

Quotes today to make up for my bad eating:

"You don’t realize how strong a person really is until you see them at their weakest moment."

“I Eat to Live, not Live to Eat”

"Pain is only temporary, pride is forever"

P.S. This picture is so lovely. I love seeing cute coupless.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Sweets Attacked


Sour Gummy Bears- 88
Ding Dong- 368
Cupcake- 231
Hot Chocolate- 25

Veggie Pizza- 350
Fruit and Yogurt from McDonald's (with Granola)- 160
Flavor water- 15
Peanut butter- 48
Waffle- 100
Total- 1385

7 cardio
+5 working legs
+3 working abs
+3 working arms
+5 yoga
+ 7 running
+ 1 dancing
+ 7.5 running
+2 yoga
+ 3.5 dancing
+2 yoga
Total= 43 minutes
Calories burned= 289
Total calories= 1385-289= 1096

Now that we see that sweets are a problem, Alexx, you will stay away from them, right? Of course not. You're weak. Go exercise some more so your net will be below 1000. And remember, you have a SET limit. Go over it and the consequences will be horrid.

Edit 9:29-9:36:
I'm down to 139!! I'm utterly amazed! Now, though, I'm soo tired. No moree exercise! Or I may just pass out. I feel like a failure, though. Tomorrow, I will be good and not go over my limit. AND I WILL EXERCISE AND BE AMAZING!