Yesterday DID NOT go as planned.

(picture is of a guy. He's Bou, ex-guitarist from Antic Cafe.)
I...kinda really badly messed up. I think it was my first real binge. It was pretty bad. I was eating for the sake of eating. I had two slices of pizza, two poptarts, some Cheese Nips, and finally a granola bar.
I'm giving up on ABC, at least for now. I may try again later, when I'm back on my game, but with all of these mistakes so early into it, I'm pretty bummed.
Right now, we have Greek yogurt. It's really...fluffy. We got the vanilla kinda because Mom doesn't ever us yogurt in her cooking and the plain kind tastes like sour cream. For a cup of this vanilla kind it's 190 calories. We have a small container left over from when we were "trying" them and it's 127 (actually, 126 point six repeating). So totally my breakfast/really early morning snack. I dun know why I'm even up this early. It's a total epic fail.

300 Calorie Limit

Snack Bar (I know I'm gonna regret this): 160

Soup (lunch): 60

Soup (supper): 60

Diet soda: 0

Leaves 20.

What to waste the 20 on?

Today was bad, yesterday was ok.

Tomorrow is 300 calories. I hope I sleep most of the day. It's pretty easy to keep dinner light.

At Anna's, my weight was about 127. ^^

Fooodddd

Today, I've had 4 pretzels, countless mints (probably like 15), and a diet soda. That makes me about 300. If I eat the salad Mom got me yesterday, I'll be good. I'll be under 500. I'm thinking about starting ABC. It's pretty harsh and I'm starting my sophomore year soon, though. I guess it'd be about willpower and wanting thin more than anything else, though. It'd be easy for a while. Then I'd want to binge. I'll be great, though.

For those of you who haven't seen it before:

Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: Fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: Fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: Fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: Fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: Fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: Fast

This will take me until September to finish. I think I'll make a blog for it, tbh.


Americaneagle: Sorry I made you worry. I ended up eating a little and did feel better. Again, I'm really sorry I made you worry. In case you can't tell, I've become quite the mess, to the point I worry myself. I'll try to never pass out, just so that the both of us don't have to worry.

I don't eat half of the day

I have one meal.

I only have a few snacks.

Today, I think I almost fainted.

No one except my little brother and older brother would have known.

It wouldn't have mattered.

Today, I was so hungry, I went back to bed to forget the pain.

Today... A lot happened.

I haven't been fasting.

I was just running on absolutely nothing.

Not even water.

Now, I'm pretty sure I'm a prisoner to this.

I don't know if I like that or not.

Lottie X: Thank you. ^^ I hope it gets better soon too. I hate being in pain for too long.

I don't know my calories

But I'm always hungry.

Lottie: I some how hurt my left knee, so I'm taking pain pills.

Been up since 11

And it's about three-thirty now. I have had 30 calories. But I have to eat, I know I do. Why? Well, I'm going to have "prescription strength" pain pills and you can't take them without food. So, that 30 is probably going to be something like 430 by the time today is over. All I've had so far is coffee. With creamer. There's the 30 calories. Haven't weighed myself yet today. I'll get my coffee and do that.

Edit:

Weight is...129. Ugh! I'm stuck here. =( I hate being 129. I wanna be 120 and lower and lovely.