Thursday, January 19, 2012


Drained, tired, those are the easiest ways to describe how I feel and not all of it has to do with the fast.
Weight: 152.8
Water, Vitamin Water Zero (the lemonade kind! :D), and coffee.
I've started cutting a little again.
Sometimes, I just need to remember that something else can happen.
That I won't just be in the muck all the time.
So I cut so that I bleed.
So that I know I'm alive.

I'm more critical of myself. Like I have some friends who are really fat and I'm like "Awww, they're soo cutee!!" And yes, it was hard, very painful, and nothing came up. Exactly! But it's always so easy to overeat with junk food because it just tastes SOOO good. Haha.


❤ ♥ Sam [Misha] Lupin ❥ ❣ said...

yeah. sometimes you feel tired even if you eat 2,000kcal a day. it's not always about food, eh?
152,8. that's like... 3,8lbs in less than a day. omg. how is that even possible?
eep. i can read all about purging but for some reason, i can't stand cutting. i am in no position to tell you to please, try to cut as little as possible? i know addition. telling me to stop purging is like telling a cat to stop purring.

i know what you mean. there are some people that are just cute fat. i can't imagine them thin and i don't think they'd look prettier thin as well. <3 >_< gah. you know - it took me around...more than a year to purge right, and it's painful before it becomes alright.
ahahaha. overeating with junk food is so easy, and you feel like you've consumed nothing and you also just want more and more! :)
-Sam Lupin

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