Monday, December 26, 2011

ABC Starts Saturday

Another Thing J.P. Doesn't Know I'm Gonna Do.
She tried to have me do the healthy thing.
When I broke down after panning a 500 calorie MEAL, she said it was good I tried.
So, Saturday I will shoot for 500.
I was going to start it tomorrow, but the 300 and 100 day fell on the two days I'll be expected to eat fast food all day.
I'm really nervous, to be honest.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Alright then...

I.M. basically told me I could starve myself, but I have to eat SOMETHING everyday.
Fruit, crackers, whatever just SOMETHING.
I'm chill with that.

Monday, September 19, 2011

I'm hungry,


really hungry.
But I've eaten all day.
And the only thing I want is chili.
Like, I want the taste of it.
So much that I think I'd deal with the meat.
I've actually concluded that I'm scared of eating meat.
Because I've gone so long without it.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

I know I've said this before:


Tomorrow is the day.
Tomorrow I am fasting.
The whole day.
Tomorrow, I will come home and do 20 push ups (my arms are really weak).
Tomorrow I will come home and do 60-70 sit ups (which ever hurts and I can do).
Tomorrow....What else will I do right tomorrow?
Tomorrow, I will run.
Tomorrow, I will stretch.
Tomorrow, I will do loads of exercises.
And get my homework done.
Tonight, though, I'm getting sleep.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Tired food rant.

I'm going vegan.
I'm sick of these days with high calorie counts.
Mom says that she won't buy food to cater to my diet choice.
Doesn't she get it?
I'm sick of feeling sick, so I'm changing my diet.
Also, it gives me reason to say no.
"Can't have it. Vegan."
There's some sense of respect you get from being vegan.
I don't get it either.
All of my calorie counts have been high recently.
I'm done with that.
I need a reason to say no.
"You want this?"
"Nu-uh. Vegan still."
Alright, 50 jumping jacks and then bed.
I'm FINALLY tired.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Some fries. A PB&J, some toast, some cheese


That's what I've had. The PB&J only had one slice of bread(70). The toast was a slice of bread(80). The cheese was probably seventy each. Okay. Over 300 by a little.
I'm going for a walk.
Mom snapped at me.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

It didn't start today. Has to be tomorrow.


I always feel like puking after eating these days.
Mom's trying to get me into the doctor's.
Until then?
I'm gonna try to not eat.
Sounds like a good enough excuse.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Being Sick is good?


Being sick makes me feel like puking when I eat.
So, being sick=good.
Is it just me or are these posts getting shorter and shorter?

Sam Lupin That day was not my day. Maybe, hopefully, tomorrow will be. I need to quit saying "tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow" Fasting gives me a wonderful feeling. I love it. So I need to quit saying tomorrow will be the day and just START NOW. :/

Saturday, September 10, 2011

TODAY. It HAS to start today.


I'm so fat that I've put it off for DAYS.
Not today. We're dress shopping tonight.
Homecoming is soon. Two weeks from today.
Today, I have to start my fasting.
School, home, out and about, whatever the challenge, I have to be stronger than that.
My period makes me gain weight, but one day, one day, I swear, when I get my period, I won't spring to 140, I'll go to one thirty, maybe one twenty-five.
I'm so tired of eating.

Kes: Good luck to you too! ^^

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Remember how I said I was going to not eat?


Well, I did. A lot.
I have schoool tomorrow.
I'll do it tomorrow and the next day and not eat until the day after.
I'll get revenge for how she treated me even if she doesn't know it.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011



I've been awful with food.
But no more.
I'm not eating from now, September 6 at 7:28 PM until September 10 at 7 AM.
I will be exercising.
This is my revenge.

Isn't that so annoying? :/ I really, really don't like eating.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Hungry. Alll The Time.


I've noticed that I feel full after a while of not eating, but RIGHT AFTER eating, even, I feel hungry. It's so weird. I also can't tell when I'm full.
Breakfast is 140 calories. I mean yogurt with honey. No fat, though.
Compared to how I eat everything else (in a -let's-get-this-over-with fashion), this is taking me forever to eat.
Lately, I've been gaining weight. I can feel it. I was 138 in clothing, with boots on when I went to the doctor. Since then, I've been scared to weigh myself. But I'm thinking I should've fasted instead of eating the yogurt.
Maybe...I'll just start fasting after I eat the yogurt, no food for the rest of the day. I always plan fasts and then fail at them. I hate that.
Mom called me out on not eating a lot last night. I said, in the middle of a huge binge, probably, "I'm so hungry for no reason!" Her reply didn't concern my diet at all. "That's good, it's been a while since you were good and hungry." I'm hungry all the time, which I guess I hide well.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

I'm gonna try for liquids today

So far, these include a meal replacement shake (110) and Coke Zero (0). The meal replacement shake is supposed to be 200 calories if you use 8 ounces of milk, but the milk I have is 80 per cup and apparently a cup is 8 fluid ounces, so I had 80 calories of milk and then I used a forth of what you're supposed to use, so it was about 30. Unlike my mom, I don't feel totally full, but I prefer it this way. Yes, I just admitted to enjoying the feeling of hunger.
Unless it's like yesterday where my hunger pains did not register as hunger, just as pain. It was a weird sensation.
So, so far so good. Let's keep it that way.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Food sucks


but I'm eating it right now. Hoping to get my metabolism up to speed.
And to get better from this cold.
Tomorrow, I may try starting a fast.
Don't worry, if I feel sicker I'll quit and eat something other than a ten calorie vitamin.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Ate like a blob today

But it's cool because I'm not eating tomorrow...or the next day... or, well for a while. FUCK FOOD.
Sorry, I had a rough day, even though it should've been easy.
I'm just...done eating for a while.
Quote from my therapist "Remember it's important to eat THREE meals a day."
My mom says that America is the only culture that does that.
She says there are some that eat five small meals a day, some that eat one BIG meal a day and snack when they're hungry, but America's the only one with three meals a day.
Mom's a nurse.
My therapist doesn't know a thing about food.
I feel like I know a lot about food. Just because...I have to. I mean, I put it into my body on a daily basis. I should know about it. Though most people don't care. They just fill their face.
Forgetting how food tastes. Forgetting I need it.
Starting tomorrow, I'm not eating for a while. I'll drink all the water in the house and then some if I have to.

Monday, August 22, 2011


Come home from it, later than I thought I would.
Brother's finishing a doughnut.
Look to see if there's any left.
None. Safe. Again.
Get the urge to eat the ancient food in my room.
Just tell myself how old it must be.
Safe. Again.
Didn't eat lunch.
Didn't have breakfast.
I'm running on fat and water.
The urge to eat is strong in this one.
But she won't give in. ^^

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Over the limits

Walking and exercising enough to make up for it, though. I don't know where that puts me.
Bad at dieting, I guess.
It can't be too far over my limits. They're pretty high limits. I'll be good now though.

Monday, August 15, 2011

So far

In: 387.5
Weight: 139
Lost my straightener. :(

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Been Busy, sorry

I have been walking so much this weekend that I think I burned all the food I ate off. Doubt it, though. We had Arby's. Lots of Arby's. I had motzerella sticks (about 5 for the weekend), a cherry turnover, some fries, and zero calorie green tea. It's not very much at all. I got full, though. Or that's what I said. I have yet to weigh myself.

Thursday, August 11, 2011


Went over my limit for today, I'm sure of it.



in junk food.
That leaves 350 for supper.
Dad's leaving at four, so I hope I can avoid food until he leaves and then until Mom gets home. Hopeful!~

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Keep messing up.


I just keep messing up. I don't know what to do right now. I have something to prove to myself, that I can do this, but I keep messing up. Today was supposed to be 150, but I have had two green teas (210 EAH), a lunchable (490), a sucker (10), and peanutbutter cups (190 times by 3). Horrible. So, week one diets changing a little. Sorry. I feel like a wuss.
Day 5: 700 (used to be a fast)
Day 6: 500 (used to be 300)
Day 7: 600
This shows I have really no courage that I can make it better than the past few days.
Also... I'm 140, fully clothed. So I'm probably actually 139 or 138, but it's still scary. No wonder the size 5 skinny jeans are TOO TIGHT.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011



Went over the calorie count for both days. :( But I was with family and they're like "No, you have to eat and be fat with us." I mean, really? 200 calories for a latte and then 370 for soup and a little bread? And then I just HAD to have the muffin/cookie thing. AND that's just one meal. The other was a HUGE slice of pizza, part of a bread stick and SODA.
Yesterday wasn't much better. And I'm sorry I missed the weighin. I'm probably 130, but I'm also lacking a scale.
Today, though, is what really matters. Today, I will have no more than 250, hopefully. This is really brutal.
kes: It was diet orange Crush.

Sunday, August 7, 2011



Today is day one. I'm actually doing pretty bad. Considering I had a little under half of a diet soda just to find out it has 25 calories in it. I was craving chocolate so I had 280 calories worth of cookie, chocolate, and peanut butter. That's all I've had today and I've been up since ten. Amazing, really. I'm putting myself at a total of 290 so far. That's enough for a cup of yogurt or fruit. Lots of fruit. I'll probably end up having half a cup of yogurt now, half a cup later. I don't know what I'm gonna do.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Diet Plan!~


So, I just texted Miss Rachael saying I would be dieting hardcore with her. Weigh ins are Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday. Every single one. Now, it's time to think up my rules for my diet that will be starting Sunday.
Sundays and Saturdays have to be higher. Mom will be watching closer.
Day 1: 500
Day 2: 300
Day 3: 250
Day 4: 150
Day 5: Fast
Day 6: 300
Day 7: 600
Day 1: 700
Day 2: fast
Day 3: fast
Day 4: 250
Day 5: 300
Day 6: 190
Day 7: 600
thirty minutes minimum on the Wii-fit or other exercise except on fasts.
Day three's fast may change to a 200 calorie day depending on how closely my parentals are watching.
Americaneagle: I haven't read Wasted yet, but I've been told that it's a very good book. If we aren't talking foodwise, I had a wonderful day. ^^
P.S. In a long time, I have not felt more excited. Awesome.

Friday, August 5, 2011



I had ice cream. That would be kinda fine, if it was a little and the only thing, but it was a lot and not the only thing and there was so much more. I don't wanna know what I weight right now. I don't want to look in the mirror. I don't... I wanna lose weight. I wanna be thin. I wanna be in control again!
Also, been reading Wintergirls. I love it so far!~

Thursday, August 4, 2011



ABC for the next few days? I know it's fifty days long, but I'm thinking about doing it for... a month. Thirty days. Anyone wanna join me?

Monday, August 1, 2011

This week, I'm staying under 600.


So far today:
Tea: 0
Sweetener: 0
Biscuit thing: 110
Small piece of left over: 50
That leaves about 440 for supper. Or 220 for supper, and 220 for a snack or you know, however it works out.
Why 600?
I don't really know. Maybe I just want to start out high, work my way lower.
One day, I wanna be that chick. The one who shoots for below 300. Or the one who fasts for days.
Anyway, I am actually thinking about fasting for 24 hours now. Go figure. I wanna see if I can go until the 12 without eating. I know I can't. There are weekends where my mom will be home and watchful of what I eat.
Oh! Speaking of Mom and eating, she pointed out that I had been eating all day and not "just when I (my mom) suggest it and make it." I guess that makes yesterday a bad day. Today will be better.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Yesterday DID NOT go as planned.

(picture is of a guy. He's Bou, ex-guitarist from Antic Cafe.)
I...kinda really badly messed up. I think it was my first real binge. It was pretty bad. I was eating for the sake of eating. I had two slices of pizza, two poptarts, some Cheese Nips, and finally a granola bar.
I'm giving up on ABC, at least for now. I may try again later, when I'm back on my game, but with all of these mistakes so early into it, I'm pretty bummed.
Right now, we have Greek yogurt. It's really...fluffy. We got the vanilla kinda because Mom doesn't ever us yogurt in her cooking and the plain kind tastes like sour cream. For a cup of this vanilla kind it's 190 calories. We have a small container left over from when we were "trying" them and it's 127 (actually, 126 point six repeating). So totally my breakfast/really early morning snack. I dun know why I'm even up this early. It's a total epic fail.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

300 Calorie Limit


Snack Bar (I know I'm gonna regret this): 160
Soup (lunch): 60
Soup (supper): 60
Diet soda: 0
Leaves 20.
What to waste the 20 on?

Friday, July 29, 2011

Today was bad, yesterday was ok.


Tomorrow is 300 calories. I hope I sleep most of the day. It's pretty easy to keep dinner light.
At Anna's, my weight was about 127. ^^

Thursday, July 28, 2011



Today, I've had 4 pretzels, countless mints (probably like 15), and a diet soda. That makes me about 300. If I eat the salad Mom got me yesterday, I'll be good. I'll be under 500. I'm thinking about starting ABC. It's pretty harsh and I'm starting my sophomore year soon, though. I guess it'd be about willpower and wanting thin more than anything else, though. It'd be easy for a while. Then I'd want to binge. I'll be great, though.
For those of you who haven't seen it before:

Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: Fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: Fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: Fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: Fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: Fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: Fast

This will take me until September to finish. I think I'll make a blog for it, tbh.

Americaneagle: Sorry I made you worry. I ended up eating a little and did feel better. Again, I'm really sorry I made you worry. In case you can't tell, I've become quite the mess, to the point I worry myself. I'll try to never pass out, just so that the both of us don't have to worry.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I don't eat half of the day


I have one meal.
I only have a few snacks.
Today, I think I almost fainted.
No one except my little brother and older brother would have known.
It wouldn't have mattered.
Today, I was so hungry, I went back to bed to forget the pain.
Today... A lot happened.
I haven't been fasting.
I was just running on absolutely nothing.
Not even water.
Now, I'm pretty sure I'm a prisoner to this.
I don't know if I like that or not.
Lottie X: Thank you. ^^ I hope it gets better soon too. I hate being in pain for too long.

I don't know my calories


But I'm always hungry.
Lottie: I some how hurt my left knee, so I'm taking pain pills.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Been up since 11


And it's about three-thirty now. I have had 30 calories. But I have to eat, I know I do. Why? Well, I'm going to have "prescription strength" pain pills and you can't take them without food. So, that 30 is probably going to be something like 430 by the time today is over. All I've had so far is coffee. With creamer. There's the 30 calories. Haven't weighed myself yet today. I'll get my coffee and do that.

Weight is...129. Ugh! I'm stuck here. =( I hate being 129. I wanna be 120 and lower and lovely.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Anna's birthday I did GREAT


I did amazing for Anna's birthday. Yesterday, though, I had TWO pieces of cake. That's more than I had for Anna's birthday. We went to a concert and I had a soda! Regular soda! But I jumped until my knee started hurting. I should've bit through the pain and jumped around some more.

Anna's birthday... Was wow. I.M. didn't tell me to eat more than what I ate. I had hardly anything. A few bites of nasty, grilled tofu, some slices of grill zucinni, a bite of grilled green onion, some popcorn (with butter, ugh), and a few bites of icing.

Weight? I dunno.


Kes: That's exactly what I did. Thank you for the advice! ^^ I also had two glasses of water really quickly together so I was fuller. If they had asked, I could have blamed it on a small stomach.

americaleagel: I had a fantastic time. Everyone was lovely and we went to see the new Harry Potter movie right after the party. I felt very loved and it wasn't even my party. Haha

Friday, July 22, 2011

Today will not be good.


I have a birthday party to go to. They're making food especially for me. I hate it. Cake, grilled veggies, whatever else they can think of to shove down my throat. Why can't I just come up with a reason to refuse? I'll feel mean. Fail.

Thursday, July 21, 2011



So, I'm fasting today. Or I'm supposed to. I mean, there's gonna be CAKE there tomorrow. I told my crush/best friend I would eat some of the cake. They're also grilling, but being polite and grilling veggies and, if they can, tofu. Can you grill tofu? I don't know if you can or not.
Why do my friend's parents have to think about me? This means I'll feel like I have to eat because they made it just for me.
Sammy: I'd never be able to just assume when I've gone over. If I really want to know the calorie count of it, I sit down and think about everything I've eaten and then I look up the calorie amount or use the amount I know.Thanks, I hope I do well at her party too. :/ Also hope I got her something she wants.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Fat, Fat, FAT


Reese's Pieces, about 3 servings(150*3=450), cheese(60), and and...there's more, I know there is! I just... can't think of any. So...there's probably not. That's under six hundred calories. That's...not so bad. I got a diet soda, so it doesn't count. It's diet Dr. Pepper. Zero calories.
Tomorrow, I have to fast. I said I would before Anna's birthday party and tomorrow is the last day. So I HAVE to. Absolutely.
My intake wasn't that good at the end of the day, though. It was about 1500. :/ Which sucks.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011


That's my calories so far.
But I haven't gone out to my grandma's yet, so unless we go around six or seven in the evening, it's gonna be worse. A lot worse.
Weight this morning with my P.J.'s on was 135. I'm subtracting a pound because of clothing, bracelets, earrings, ect... So, we're going with 134.
My legs look thinner. Not since yesterday, but since I REALLY looked at them. I took a picture of them just to see if it was true.It is. They're not super thin, but they're thinner. Which is a start. Remember, you're working to look not like this.By the way, I did not wear those boots around today. Really think they're cute, but they look pretty winter-ish.

Lottie X: I actually had a wonderful day yesterday, just not...foodwise.

Kes: The markings on our scale are sooo tiny, so I can't really tell what it says without bending down, but then they change because I'm putting more pressure on it. See I'm usually the one getting other people's clothes. And I hate it. Haha

Edit: Ugh! Right after posting I go and eat 350 calories.

Monday, July 18, 2011



It's two-thirty.
I've been up since eleven-thirty.
I've brushed my teeth, washed my face, put on eyeliner, watched a TV special about Harry Potter (♥), found my favorite jacket, oh and not eaten.
Only drank part of a bottle of water, a full bottle of water, and two classes of coffee.
Feeling freaking great. Other than the music on the radio sucks and my little brother's using the other computer so I can't blast my ears out with great music. Oh and my headphones are dying so they block out sound, but sound like crap.
Huh, I kinda wonder where my Choir hoodie went.
Burn calories tearing my room apart looking for it? Sounds like a good idea. See, I love my choir hoodie. It's huge on me and really thick. Perfect for when I don't want to wear a coat in winter.
Only, I have no clue where it's wondered off to.

I knew I was forgetting something.
Weight this morning: 136/135. I couldn't really tell which. Of course, I'll be weighing myself later tonight.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

I'm an Idiot.

That whole thing about me being beautiful?
Can't be true.
Eating makes me sick. Almost literally. I went into the bathroom after eating a side salad, cherry pie, and drinking half a powerade/hi-c mix. Nearly got on my knees and made myself puke for the first time ever. But I didn't.
Calorie count was up at around 1040. Not "normal" but it will make me fat. Especially with how much sugar and fat stuff I had.

Monday, May 30, 2011

I think...


I'm going to eat what the call a "healthy" calorie amount. Which to me will be 1200. I'll still lose weight, not as fast, and it's healthier since I sit on my butt most of the time. I wanna be able to at least maintain my weight. All this is because I looked at my wrist for the past few weeks and thought "When did you get small?".
Guys, we're gorgeous. We just can't see it.
I wanna find someone who loves me and I wanna be able to do everything with them and not feel guilt.I wanna be alive and free.
Sorry if I'm disappointing someone, but this is my life and I'm running it the way I want. So I guess I'm not sorry.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Dropping the 0


on my 24680 diet. Since it's hot, I'm only gonna do 468. Which is a lot, I know. During this heat, though, I need energy to not pass out. So far, 123 calories. From a yogurt and parts of an egg.
Dunno my current weight.
Maybe when I'm smaller I'll get a boy/girlfriend

Friday, May 27, 2011

Bad Day


We went to a buffet. Ugh. I had 3 plates, technically. One was all fruit. One was mainly noodles. The last one was three SMALL desserts. I'm guessing, with two technical meals, I had about the same a normal person has all day. UGH!!
Tomorrow is 800. Let's hope I can keep to this. If not, I'm doing a two day fast. Dizzy is not enough . I need to be low calorie.

So far, so good.

So far I've had 230 calories! YAY!
Danced off about 8 for a net of 222. Cute number.
I'm gonna weigh myself here in a minute for the contest I'm in!
Under 130, pleasee?

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Alex was weak

Over 200... I'll do better next time!!
Tomorrow= first day of summer/400 calories.
I'll be stronger. I'll so it.

I will be strong

Today I will eat no more than 200 calories. Today, I'll be light. Today, I will run on almost empty and be proud. Today, I will not be tempted by the just food Anna plans on making. I will not feel safe just because I am speaking to someone. I will be strong!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011



I posted all happy to have eaten so little...and then my mom got home and I felt "safe" so I ate.
Scale says 134.
Tried talking to one of my friends about this because sometimes I hate it. She doesn't understand. She's larger and happy. She's the person who makes the jokes, I'm the brat who lives them.
Purging came to mind while I was in the shower. Didn't do it because I'm sure everything's digested. This is starting to scare me because I can imagine purging.
But I've come so far...

Thank you all for the nice comments... I just wish I deserved them. Tomorrow I will! I'll be strong ALL day. ||ANONYMOUS||, americaneagle, and NeoHippie I will be worthy of comments about a good intake tomorrow!
Americaneagle, what store is that?! I want a cheap tank top!
Anonymous, this is how I feel about any diet: if you wanna, go for it. It's alright if you don't have time to. I just get a little lonely.
NeoHippie, Aw, I'm glad I make you less lonely! That's why I'm here!



Ate 210, burned 28.27 so far! SO FAR! I'm planning of doing more, of course. Wouldn't it be cool if I got down to a net of zero?
So, on most sites I go to for diet-planning say not to take money with you. Well, I say find out how a coffee, plain, is from a place near where you're going. Exact change, down to tax. That way you can caffeinate yourself, but not be tempted for much else. That's what I do, at least, when I'm out with friends. A small coffee from McDonald's, last time I got one, was 96 cents.
I have nine followers and none of you say anything. It's quite lonely. Then again, I don't give much for you to say anything about.
Oh! Alex is thinking of doing a 24680 diet. Meaning two hundred, four hundred, six hundred, eight hundred, ZERO! I'll start tomorrow! We get out for summer tomorrow, so it's PERFECT.

Americaneagle, sorry I didn't see your comment earlier! Anyway, I'm always really hard on myself when I have junk foods. They're generally the one thing that trips me up.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


Sorry, no picture. The comp won't let me log in.
Ate 963 and used about 108. Yay?


A freaking ice cream bar kept me from a perfect 0. Icecream!
So mad.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Ate a little.


And ran half a mile in 4 minutes and thirty seconds. I probably had 421 1200 calories and burned 58 74. It actually felt great to run that much that fast.
Currently, I have a net of 363 1118. Under 500! Yay~
Had coffee for breakfast, some rolls and chips for lunch, no snack, and no dinner (hopefully).
Was gonna fast, but my teacher made lunch, so I felt it would be rude to decline.

Sunday, May 22, 2011


Dunno how much I ate today, not enough to make the dizzies go away. Wish I had fasted. Tomorrow, maybe??
Asking Anna about cigarettes. Because she knows where to get some. And I don't see it, mentally, as bad as drinking. Drinking makes you gain weight, right? Smoking keeps you from wanting to eat.
I don't know my intake or how much I exercised. Did I exercise? The days kinda flow together.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Get up and Dance


I use most of my calories dancing. Just realized this. Maybe that's why my legs are more toned than my tummy.

Water- zero.

Coffee- 0-2
Water- 0

Same as lunch

This is only a plan right now. Let's hope I can stick with it.

DANCING~ for AT LEAST 10 minutes
Working stummy for at least 4 minutes
Jumping jacks for 1 minute
And WiiFit for 20 minutes
Without the wiifit, this should burn 106. The wiifit will probably be another hundred, at least.

Sounds fun. Alright, I'm off to make my dance playlist! That way I won't have any drab, boring songs that I try dancing to.

Everything strike-out is my failures. I did six minutes dancing, worked my stummy for two minutes, didn't touch the wiifit, had 3 slices of cheese, a ninety calorie yogurt, 290 calories worth of cake, and 4 frozen cherries. About 673 taken in and only about sixty-eight burned. FAIL. Bad, bad, bad.

Friday, May 20, 2011



That's my calorie count. Yep, I broke my fast for....Cookies. Fail.
I did dance for about a minute while I was out tonight. Then I got home and danced to a few songs for about three minutes. Laziness. But I burned about... 26 calories.
This means I have a huge net of 495. Yep...
I'm gonna go do something to work my absss. Because my tummy looks ick.

Coffee For Breakfast

Coffee and water. I'm trying to fast for today. Hopefully a steady stream of caffeine will keep me almost empty. Yay~

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Forgot to Count

I didn't count my calories today, sure bet it's a lot.
Exercisin, though. My tummy looked preggo. It hurts to work it, but in a good way.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011



I'm gonna be honest, I haven't kept track. My tummy hurts from hunger. Isn't that enough? No. These 3's are too small. Sure, they go on easy. But that means nothing. NOTHING if I never get to 120s. Nothing if 130 does not become my new "fat weight-watch out!". NOTHING if all I am is fat.

Monday, May 16, 2011



Breakfast: None
Lunch: Some Mac and Cheese (100)
Snack: Coffee (25), Combos (65)
Total: 190

Exercise: P.E. (run a minute, walk for half, did this for 10 minutes), crunches (70)

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I don't know.


Food went in. Walking happened. Weight? 130. New lowest weight. Awesome. Only I'm too tired to give a damn.
Tomorrow I'll have not a single calorie more than 900. I'll find something more to do than walk. Tomorrow, I'll be amazing.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


Intake: 895
Used: 32 + 145 + 24 + 6= 207
Net: 688
Weight: Wii says 130.3
I'm getting there. It's coming off. It's amazing.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Goal: 100


Intake: 92
Used: 13 + 23 + 25 + 16 + 5 = 101
Total: -9
Of course, the day isn't over yet. That number could be more negative or positive before the day is up. Obviously I'll edit it as I eat/exercise.